I am tired of “making lemonade.”
Who ever came up with the saying:
“When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.”
They really should have been more creative.
I am terrible at making lemonade. I take things way too personally. I know that is one of my character flaws. I know that I am not able to let things “roll of my back” (there is another euphanism that I can’t handle).
I just internalize things (because I do not have someone to whom venting is a regular and useful thing). I also internalize and keep my mouth shut because I know that I have a tendancy to be blunt and that gets me in trouble and makes people not like me. However, when I keep my mouth shut because I don’t want to speak unkindly, I am then deemed stand-off-ish and unapproachable. I just want to be liked and included.
I can’t win for living.
My life seems to be a series of disappointment after disappointment.
I would just like something encouraging to happen soon!
Yes, I know that the people that disappointment me aren’t worth the anguish it is causing me. I know that in my brain…. tell that to my heart. I know that there are people who do care about me and do not actively disappoint me. I am just struggling today with so much disappointment weighing me down.
The sun did come out this morning after that wonderful thunderstorm. I’m sure that I will find my joy again… I hope that I will find my joy again… it seems elusive right now.
Do you disappoint others? I’m sure that I do.
Today, make it a point to encourage someone instead.
If your life is full of disappointment (as mine is) try and find something positive about the day to focus on. I will be focusing on a new piece I am crocheting and it is turning out nicely. It will not remove the disappointment, but it will distract me for a while and that is good too.