Frequency of Fun?

It is pretty clear that if something isn’t fun, you try not to do it very often.  You only do it if you HAVE to… dentist:  every 6 months, Gynecologist:  once a year, Mammogram:  once a year, taxes:  once a year….

 

But what about if something is fun?  How often should you engage in that activity?

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Once a month?

Once a week?

Twice a week?

Once a day?

 

It depends, doesn’t it.

Once a Quarter – this would probably be those things that cost a bit of money or extra time to do.  Like taking the Girl Scouts camping.  There is the cost of the campsite and then all the preparations and food.  Once a quarter is more than most troops do, but something I really like to do with my scouts.  We might not be able to this year due to their High School Schedules.

 

Once a Month– would this include things like movie night?  Dinners out?  Cards with friends?   Things that might require some money, but not a lot of planning time.  I can’t think of anything specific that we do once a month.

 

Once a Week – what would you do once a week if you could?  This could also be a meal out.  When we lived in Cambridge, we ate out every Saturday night at Brightons.  What good memories we have of that time.  That was the first restaurant for at least 2 of our babies.  What else might be once a week?   Maybe a hike or bike?  Maybe a visit to Grandma?  Writing on your blog?  What about a backyard campfire and quiet night under the stars?   These things probably cost very little, if anything, but are nice little respites during the week.

 

Twice a Week – what is so fun that you might want to up the frequency a bit?  What would you up the frequency of to do at least twice a week?  If you could, would you eat out twice a week?  Would you take the time to exercise – hike or bike – twice a week?  Would you call someone on the phone more regularly and visit with them?  Would you sit and read a book more frequently?   Twice a week isn’t much, but for some things, it would certainly be nice and would probably improve your overall wellbeing especially if it involved exercise or human interaction.

 

Once a Day – WOW!  Is there anything that you would love to do once a day??   Is there anything that you should do once a day?  Maybe those hikes?  Or reading?  Or visits?  Maybe a shower?

 

Is there something that you would like to do more frequently than you currently do?

 

If money is an obstacle… then you might just have to be happy with once a month or quarter.

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What if it was entirely free?  What if it included human interaction?  What if it would make you feel good?  What if it would help your health?

 

What would you have to give up to increase the frequency?  Probably some of your own selfishness, is my guess.  If it involves others, you will have to think of them and work it out so you can connect with them at the appropriate times.  Won’t it be worth it??  Fun is good!  Free Fun is even better!  Free fun with someone you love and who loves you and it might improve your health is the best!!

 

What kinds of things do you do with regularity?

What kind of things would you like to increase in regularity?

Lemonade?

I am tired of “making lemonade.”

Who ever came up with the saying:

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“When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.”

 

They really should have been more creative.

 

I am terrible at making lemonade.  I take things way too personally.  I know that is one of my character flaws.  I know that I am not able to let things “roll of my back”  (there is another euphanism that I can’t handle).

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I just internalize things (because I do not have someone to whom venting is a regular and useful thing).   I also internalize and keep my mouth shut because I know that I have a tendancy to be blunt and that gets me in trouble and makes people not like me.  However, when I keep my mouth shut because I don’t want to speak unkindly, I am then deemed stand-off-ish and unapproachable.   I just want to be liked and included.

 

I can’t win for living.

 

My life seems to be a series of disappointment after disappointment.

 

I would just like something encouraging to happen soon!

 

Yes, I know that the people that disappointment me aren’t worth the anguish it is causing me.  I know that in my brain…. tell that to my heart.    I know that there are people who do care about me and do not actively disappoint me.   I am just struggling today with so much disappointment weighing me down.

 

The sun did come out this morning after that wonderful thunderstorm.  I’m sure that I will find my joy again… I hope that I will find my joy again… it seems elusive right now.

 

Do you disappoint others?  I’m sure that I do.

Today, make it a point to encourage someone instead.

If your life is full of disappointment (as mine is) try and find something positive about the day to focus on.  I will be focusing on a new piece I am crocheting and it is turning out nicely.    It will not remove the disappointment, but it will distract me for a while and that is good too.

 

 

 

 

Physical Beauty

Let’s be real.  We all want to be considered pretty or beautiful… heck some of us would even settle for cute.     🙂

 

As much as we don’t like to admit it, we do make an initial impression of a person based on their physical beauty.  Yes… we do judge books by their cover…   We are human beings.

 

Of course, “it is what is inside that counts”… we have all heard that and we do believe it.  We know that someone can be physically beautiful but can be a terrible, ugly person.  The reverse is also true.  Someone could be not very attractive and have the best heart and be the most loving and giving person ever.

 

Then why do we yearn for people to compliment us and tell us that we look nice or that we are pretty?

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Do you remember when you were 10 or 12 and you asked your mother:  “Am I pretty?”  Your mother probably replied the same as mine:  “Of course you are!”

But did you really believe her?  Afterall, you look at yourself in the mirror everyday and don’t see it.  She HAS to say that, she’s your mother after all.  Is she really going to tell you that you are homely?

 

Seeing ourselves as physically beautiful has a whole lot to do with self-esteem.  When you feel good about yourself… when you are feeling confident… when you are feeling loved… at those times, when you look in the mirror you think:  “yeah, I might be beautiful.”  However, when you are exhausted from the stress of life and things haven’t been going your way, that is when the mirror says to you:  “nope, just my same old homely self.  No one thinks I’m pretty.”

 

Do you tell others that they are beautiful?  Do you say it enough?  Is there a point where you could say it too much and it not come across as sincere?  I believe there is.  Telling someone they are pretty/beautiful needs to be a sincere statement.  I shouldn’t just be “something you say.”  It needs to come from your heart and needs to be truthful.  There are times when you just really don’t look beautiful and if someone says that you are, you know that they are just being nice and are not being sincere.  In that case, it becomes hard to know when they are being sincere with their compliments.

 

Yes, yes… inner beauty can shine through and even coated in mud or pimples or sweat someone can appear beautiful to you.  They should, if you love them.   Still, do you tell them they are beautiful at that moment?  Probably not.  There are other ways to compliment them and encourage them.

 

However… IMHO (in my humble opinion), when someone says:  You look nice…  You look pretty…  etc.  It is meant as a compliment to your physical beauty.   At least, that is how I take it.

 

Saying things like:  You are nice… You are fabulous… etc.  Those statements would be more about the inner beauty.    Which is, in the end, more important than the physical beauty but…

 

Still… we love to hear it don’t we.

 

You are beautiful.

You look nice in that outfit.

Your hair looks nice today.

You should wear those jeans more, I like the way they make your butt look.    (LOL!  OK, don’t say that to anyone but your significant other.)

You are pretty.

 

Maybe you will be able to encourage someone by reminding them that they are pretty.

Maybe you will help build up someone’s self esteem so they can be a better parent, friend, mentor, teacher, human being…

Maybe you will just make someone smile and giggle a little bit.

 

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Not to brag but… I do have VERY PRETTY daughters!   ❤

 

 

 

 

Strong Woman?

What is a strong woman?

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Is it someone who can lift hundreds of pounds?  Like the women in the Olympics?

 

Is it someone who can fight or box or has a black belt?

 

Is it someone who doesn’t shower so has a strong odor?

 

What is a strong woman?

 

Why am I always called a strong woman?

 

What makes a woman strong?

 

I think what makes people think I am strong is that I don’t over react to situations that “normal” woman might get all excited about or fret about or get anxious about.

 

For example:  My mother was making a list of all the “tragedies” she has had since Christmas.

*the bedroom flood

*the new sump pump

*her sister dieing

*tree branches through the roof

Now which of those are really tragedies to get all upset about?  Some women would not be able to handle any of those.

 

My first response to her was something like this:   The sump pump certainly wasn’t a tragedy, the water wasn’t anywhere near the furnace.  Maybe if the water had reached the furnace it would have been a tragedy.

 

To which she responded something like:  Yes, to you and I that wasn’t a tragedy but to others it would have been.

 

So… because I can take things in stride – like sump pumps, and flooded bedrooms, and trees through the roof – that makes me a strong woman?  Because I don’t get emotional about that and have a nervous breakdown and need someone to rescue me?

 

Is that what makes a strong woman?

 

If so, then that is because I was raised that way (obviously, if my mother is a strong woman).

 

I was raised to just fix it.  If there is a problem (tragedy?) then you just get ‘er done.  You repaint the bedroom, you install a new sump pump, you prepare to repaint a bedroom after the branch damage is repaired.  You call the insurance, you call the repairmen, you schlep your butt to the hardware store to get the right parts for the new sump pump.  You just do it.

 

I was raised, that woman/girls can and should be able to take care of themselves.  I can do all those things and build a castle in my backyard as well.  I own the power tools and know how to use them.

 

But just because I can do all those things, does that make me a strong woman?

 

Is being a strong woman just about having abilities to cope physically or is it also an emotional/mental state?

 

If I am classified as a strong woman, does that mean I can handle emotional tragedies as well?  What does that look like? Is it stoicly standing by your father’s grave in 3 feet of snow at 7 months pregnant and not sobbing hysterically?    Is it holding your head as high as you can when you are told you must move from your home and community because of a job transfer?   Is it laying in your delivery bed after giving birth to a child and being told she was being life-flighted to another hospital and not screaming and sobbing?

 

If so… than I guess I’m that kind of strong woman too.

 

Here is the kicker.  I don’t necessarily enjoy being a strong woman.

 

On the inside, I am not as strong as you think.    I would love to be taken care of.  To be told “it is OK” to not be strong, to not hold it all together, to let someone else take care of things.   Would I be able to let go, if given that option?  I don’t know, no one has ever offered.

 

I do believe that while a good portion of my strength was learned/inherited, another large portion of it comes from God.  While my faith has wavered greatly (massively) over the last 5 years, I still believe that He is in control, therefore why should I get worked up over things.  I don’t need to worry (I don’t tend to be a worrier, though I do tend to run multiple scenarios in my brain that may or may not come to fruition).

 

Honestly, was I worried when that baby was taken away to the helicopter?  Not really.  Someone asked me once how I handled it because they were sure they would not have handled it so gracefully.  I just did.  That is how “I roll.”

 

How did I handle my father’s death and then a baby shower the next week?  I just did. I had to.  Life goes on.  What was I to do, curl up in a ball in the corner?  That isn’t me.   Do I still cry myself to sleep with the grief of his death.  Yes, I do.

 

When my mother tells me her bathroom/bedroom is flooded on the same day as my Christmas Open House, do I get all stressed about it and fret?  Nope, I put on my shoes and bail and move furniture.  That’s what I do.

 

Am I tired of being called a strong woman?   YES

Am I tired of being a strong woman?  YES

Will anything really change? NOPE

I will always be a strong woman because that is who I am.

However… feel free to help me out… or take care of me… or treat me like a “not strong” woman (whatever that looks like)… because it would be nice.

 

I was raised by a strong woman.

I am a strong woman.

I am raising strong women.

While I may not like it all the time, I would rather be a strong woman than the opposite.

 

 

 

Keeping Your Mouth Shut

I seem to be doing that a lot lately… keeping my mouth shut.

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Why?  Mainly because my opinion is not valued… my insight is not considered important… I don’t want to come off as a “know it all”… I don’t want to hurt feelings or offend people… I sometimes forget/fail to filter what I say and then I feel bad about it or hurt someone’s feelings and I don’t want to do that…

 

Is this a good thing?  Keeping my mouth shut?  I’m not certain.  I think that it could be… but maybe not?

 

I sit and watch some event/gathering and know that I could have helped make it better… but ..

  1.  I wasn’t asked.
  2.  I don’t want to step on toes.
  3. I wasn’t asked.

 

Why didn’t I speak up?  Because I do not want to hurt someone’s feelings… mainly that is it.  I have decided that letting people do what they are capable of doing and what they want to do is fine.  (Well, not really, it bugs the heck out of me but…)  Even when I know that something could be/should be better, I am keeping my mouth shut.   I am letting them succeed or fail and it won’t be my problem…. right?

 

I am choosing to be silent.  I am choosing to not get involved.  I am choosing to let things continue as mediocre.  I am allowing others to do as they see fit.

 

I’m not sure this is best for my blood pressure.  I’m not sure this is best for my mental health.

 

However, what else is there to do?

 

If I speak up, I feel the resentment.  I am treated with resentment (not always, but often).  I feel like I am being “bossy” and taking things over.  I hurt people’s feelings.   I am rejected as a friend.  I am talked about behind my back and behind closed doors.

 

It is very hard to sit on my hands… to take a back seat… to keep my mouth shut… to not get involved… to let others take the lead and make the decisions… I am really struggling with this.

 

I have recently been told that I come off as “stand-off-ish”… I guess this plays right into that.

Irritants?

Is there something that you do that irritates others?

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Is there something that irritates you?

 

Is there something your loved one does repeatedly, that they know irritates you and yet, they continue to do it?

 

Do dirty clothes on the floor bother you?

Do your children leave their dishes in the living room?

Does someone consistently leave the toilet seat up?

Do you love someone that plays their music too loud – all the time?

Do you live with someone that grinds their teeth when they chew?

Do you have to remind someone to clean up after themselves – every day?

 

What do you do?

 

How do you handle it if you live with some activity/action that your loved one does that irritates you?  They know it irritates you.   Yet, they continue with very little change or consideration for your feelings.

 

Is this a time where you just “suck it up” and live with it, because, certainly you must have something that irritates them and therefore it is equal?

Is this a time when you get angry and remind them AGAIN how much that irritates you and how you feel it is inconsiderate?

Is this a time for introspection on your part so that you can figure out why it irritates you?

 

What if you already know why it irritates you  and you feel that you have shared that reasoning before and still there seems to be a lack of concern for you?

 

Does this mean that the other person is unfeeling and selfish?  Does this mean that the other person is an egomaniac and only cares for themselves?  Could be.

Does this mean that the other person doesn’t fully understand the impact their action/activity takes on you.  Most Likely.

 

One would hope that loved ones would not deliberately continue to do something that they know is very bothersome to the person they love.  Yes, it might continue some (after all, one would assume they like to do it) but, one would hope, they would curtail it in your presence.

 

What is the reason for your uncomfortableness with the action/activity?

 

Is it a physical reason?  Do you become injured because they leave things in your way to trip over?  Or harm yourself on?

Is it a physical reason?  Does your blood pressure go up because of the stress?

Is it a physical reason?  Do you get a headache because of an odor?

Is it an emotional reason?  Does it make you think of a former terrible experience?

Is it an emotional reason?  Does it make you sad?

Is it an emotional reason?  Does it cause you stress and unrest?

Is it an economical reason?  Is there something going to waste?

Is it an economical reason?  Is there a better/easier/more efficient way to do it?

 

If you know the reason you are irritated by the action…  If you feel you have shared that reason with your loved one…  I’m not certain what to do next if they do not seem to be concerned about your feelings/well being.

 

I believe that one should almost always put others first.  That you should help others, you should care for others, you should take others feelings into consideration.  However, where does that leave me?  I guess that leaves me on the bottom of the pile, being walked on, used, ignored, neglected and irritated.    Is that what should be happening?  Should one always “suck it up” when faced with these irritants?

 

I am certain that everyone feels that way at times. Everyone thinks they go out of the way to help others.  That they are the ones always compromising or giving in.

 

This is part of living with others.  We live in a give and take world.  At times we have to give more than expected.

 

Giving is good.  We teach our children to share, not to grab as much as they can.  (OK, some parents do teach them to grab, but… for the sake of this blog, we’ll assume that those parents are the exception.)    We teach our children to say please and thank you… to hold the door for others… to say excuse me when they want to interrupt or pass in front of someone… to be polite.

 

Why is then that in our own homes and families, we  fail?   Is it because we are so comfortable  with those human beings and the fact that they must love us that we let down our guard?  Or is it because we can only be polite and courteous so long that we just don’t care when we are at home?

 

I do not have any answers…. I really don’t.   I wish I did.     😦

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Two different people have been pushing… challenging… encouraging me to think about setting up a website business for custom made yarn items.

I could do that.

 

HOWEVER…

 

Would it be worth the effort?

Will it bring me an income?

Will it take the fun and creativity out of knitting/crocheting that I love?

Will it take all my time and not leave me the time to make the things I want to make for myself and my family/friends?

 

All hard questions I have to wrestle with.

 

Let’s suppose that I decide to do it.

 

What do I call it??

 

What name do I put on my business?

It would need to be something catchy.

Something unique.

Something cute.

Something that fits me.

 

My goal of the business would be to create personalized, custom, unique items for individuals on a piece by piece basis.  I do NOT want to mass produce one item over and over and over and over again.  BLAH    I need to be creative.

 

I would like to have the ability to tell them “no” if I have to much on my plate and /or just don’t have the time to do it.

I already make things for friends and family (and Girl Scouts).  I want (need) to have the time to continue to do that.

 

I do know what kind of logo I would want.    I will have one of my Girl Scouts that is in the graphic design program work that on for me – I’ll barter with her.    😉

I’ll make her something wonderful if she’ll make me the graphic.  Something like this.

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or this

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But what do I call myself?

 

Tentatively I had being using

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But there is nothing creative about that.

 

So… suggestions for business names, please.

 

Thanks!