For the last 10-12 years, May has been the worst month for me to get through. It shouldn’t be because there are great things that happen in May…
End of the year concerts
End of the school year banquets and recognitions
Memorial Day (camping or at Linwood)
End of the scouting year awards evening
But for some reason, May almost always whips my emotional butt. I used to think it was the GS camping. When I had 3 troops, I would take them camping together in the fall and/or winter. But in May, I would take each troop separately so I could spend quality time with them alone. I have cut back on that. I only have 2 troops now and we went camping together AND in April….
All the end of the school year stuff, isn’t too stressful, I’m not in charge of it…
GS Awards evening… yes that adds stress…
Graduation… not a big deal and only happens to me every 3 years… the party isn’t till August…
Memorial Day events… yes, that can be stressful. We struggled for years to blend 2 different family traditions. One family that camped at Wanake every Memorial Day and one family that spent the weekend at Linwood. We finally settled on alternating years. This year we were to be at Wanake but because of Graduation (and other extenuating circumstances that I really don’t want to go into and are probably adding to the malaise this year) we didn’t go anywhere. It isn’t overly stressful on a “normal” year to be at Wanake for Memorial Day. It is an unprogrammed weekend and we get to REALLY camp and cook out our meals and just be. That is nice. When we are at Linwood, yes it is stressful. We are in a house that is over full and the food is sometimes iffy and some of the family members …. well… we do generally have a good time though… if the weather is warm, the kids get to get in Lake Erie for the first time of the season, and walking on the beach is nice and usually there is a good sunset, and some fun games of Oh Blimey! with family.
Mother’s Day… eh… could always be better… I think that no one knows what to do or how to show love in this household…and I suppose that deficiency falls on the mom for not teaching/modeling it … so I guess that it is my fault that I feel “eh” on Mother’s day.
Anniversary… it has been 27 years… I can’t remember the last time I felt like I had a wonderful anniversary… there have been good ones but they seem few and far between. Again, it is probably my fault because I’m not good at the demonstrative stuff and all… but I also have other theories on this that are … well… very personal… and my own demons that I am still wrestling with and probably not good fodder for a public blog.
Once again, however, I feel like May has kicked my emotional butt and I am drained because of it. June begins tomorrow!! Summer is here! My list of things to accomplish this summer is huge. Hopefully I will get most of it done for a change. If I can kick the lethargy that May leaves me with maybe I can motivate myself to August and the grad party.